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[Saturday March 26, 2am] |
When i'm nervous or sad I tend to peel my nails unconsciously. Now that all my nails have been peeled till I can hardly see the edges, they sink into my flesh and sometimes I quite enjoy that mild sensation of pain.
But you know what? Even though the nails are brittle, ugly and jagged, they will grow. Imperfect at first, they will one day be alright again, probably not beautiful, but at least they'll be fine.
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[Wednesday March 23, 1am] |
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No one in this whole world can understand how I feel right now. What's worse than destitution is nothingness. Empty shell of what once was.
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[Monday March 21, 10pm] |
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I am not okay. I can't continue lying to myself and people around me. I am not okay and I haven't been for awhile.
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[Monday February 28, 2am] |
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Hahaha I spent some time trying to figure out who xjukeboxx is and I even thought it was someone I had forgotten!!! Like some like old long-lost acquaintance or something. And it turns out it was del..... Lol. Totally made my night reading her 4 entries in jan2007. Good memories :)
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[Sunday February 27, 4pm] |
I come here once in a while to check on friends and look through my own posts. Hahaha am the only one who does that? I like reading my older posts. Although none of them make any sense but it's kinda therapeutic sometimes. Except when I get to really old posts that make me cringe.... When I was young. Anyway, I am awfully annoyed with myself for not concentrating my essay. It's sunday already. Midterms on mon, tues, wed and fri and essay due on mon. I am too nonchalant and relaxed for my own good :( I hate the quality of my essay but I can't find it in me to go change it. Not that I could even if I wanted to (that's the problem with essays, the idea must hit you, not the other way round.)
Looking at my lj profile pic makes me smile :)))) It's so yellow and happy and you can't see our toot sec4 faces. Hahaha. So cutesy though.
Mmm I have nothing else to say. Say goodnight and go~~~*
To be happy about nothing instead of having nothing that makes you happy.
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